I have a bit of a problem.
I see things all the time that I love and I think, hmmmmm…I can make that.
Furniture in stores, jewelry in magazines, even pillows and wall hangings on TV.
As a matter of fact, back in 2005 when How I Met Your Mother was released, there was an episode or two that Marshall and Lily had a knitted blue blanket, and I have wanted one ever since.
I looked on Amazon. Etsy. You name it.
And sure, I found some truly gorgeous blankets. But for $400?
So for years I have wanted to learn to knit.
And I don’t mean the easy way. Anyone can do it the easy way with a round loom. (I know because I have been using a loom for years.)
I want to learn the old-fashioned way.
Real knitting. With needles.
I have tried many times over the years. But it is HARD, dangit. It takes focus and practice and concentration. Every time I was at the craft store, I would stop and look longingly at the knitting needles…
Oh scary little lovelies, how I long to master you.
Every once in a while I would break down, buy a pair of needles and a beautiful new shade of yarn, and rush home to try again.
But it would end in futility.
A little cussing.
Knitting needles in the trash, tantrum style.
But this year I have been learning the art of softening. And reigning my wild impatience and fury into submission.
And there is also this beautiful thing known as YouTube tutorials. Savior of creatives everywhere. Can’t learn by reading instructions? No problemo! Pull up a YouTube tutorial and it’s like having a teacher in your own living room.
I watched two different videos over and over and over again.
I played them in slow motion.
I knitted as I watched.
I ripped down and started over 1,846 times. And suddenly it just hit me….and I understood it.
It is essentially the same movement over and over again a billion times until you have a blanket.
And so it goes.
I have to accept that it will take time. No one knits a giant, fuzzy blanket in one day.
But working on it consistently and patiently, every single day…will eventually yield a beautiful blanket.
It is the same with love.
Health and wellness.
You figure out how to do it and then pour yourself into it, and then just do that over and over and over again.
The lesson I am learning in my life right now is very basic:
We are what we repeatedly do.