Baller

Recently I signed my 14-year old daughter up for AAU basketball. Not familiar with AAU? AAU is a travel league that plays April through August. Anyone who signs up for this league knows that for 4 months of the year, it is your life. The tournaments. The driving. The practices. The driving. The excitement and the competition and the great…

Stuffed

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ You must do the thing you think you cannot do.” -Eleanor Roosevelt   It is very hard for…

Puzzled

Friday afternoon while in a meeting with my boss, my cell phone rang. I looked at the caller ID. Zion’s teacher. Oye. When Zion’s teacher calls me, it is never good news. I cringed and excused myself to the hallway to answer my phone. She explained the events of Zion’s day, as she sobbed. I listened to this Precious Heart describe…

Angry

Crash. Bang. Boom. I open one eye and look at the clock. 8:28 a.m. He’s up. Oh boy is he ever up. Dude, it’s Sunday. Why can’t you just shelf the autism and sleep til noon like a typical 12 year old boy? Sigh. Suddenly it hits me that all of the noise is coming from him jumping off of…

Grateful

Yesterday morning I woke up to birds singing outside my window. Not something I normally hear in March, but I just assumed that God sent them airmail for my birthday. 44. Yikes. How did I get here? Wasn’t I just 24 like…yesterday? So many memories. Some good. Some…not so good. Let’s just call them lessons. I thought about 1997 me.…

Time-out

This morning Zion was sitting on the floor doing a puzzle, when he looked up at me and said, “Mama, we go to the beach?” I love that kid. He is SO mine. He loves the sand and the ocean waves just as much as his mama…maybe more. I said, “This summer, buddy.” He looked back down at his puzzle. I…

Starfish Moment

Life has been sort of a blur lately. Between both of my jobs, single-parenting, and trying to keep a home together, I haven’t been to the grocery store in like 3 weeks. Maybe a month. Yesterday morning I opened the refrigerator and it was so empty, I’m fairly certain I heard it whisper, “Helpppp me.” So I made my list, and headed…